i hate working i hate dating i hate tasks. what about pillow and blanky time
"Sometimes you kiss my cheek and tell me that devotion is just your ability to endure."
i hate working i hate dating i hate tasks. what about pillow and blanky time
“I felt utterly alone, like I was the last person alive on Earth. I can’t describe that feeling of total loneliness. I just wanted to disappear into thin air and not think about anything.”
— Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore
It’s cool to not be totally healed from something 9 months later and it’s also cool to understand that you don’t really heal from anything you just live beyond it and find new happiness and it’s cool to grieve the loss of some sort of innocence you can’t quite name and it’s cool if you’re crying because I am too
Momo Simic - Late Night Game. Oil on canvas.
when Sharon Olds said "If I pass a mirror, I turn away, I do not want to look at her, and she does not want to be seen."
Bell hooks said "love is profoundly political. Our deepest revolution will come when we understand this truth. Only love can give us the strength to go forward in the midst of heartbreak and misery. Only love can give us the power to reconcile, to redeem, the power to renew weary spirits and save lost souls. The transformative power of love is the foundation of all meaningful social change. Without love our lives are without meaning. Love is the heart of the matter. When all else has fallen away, love sustains"
sunday is just i have to set my computer on fire i have to do laundry i have to find god i have to make tea i have to quit my job and start a new life in a different state i have to be more honest with the people around me i have to clean my room i have to cut my hair i have to be more deliberate with my hobbies and downtime i have to make a doctors appointment i have to go back to therapy i have to start dating i have to make more friends i have to go on a long drive i have to spend 4 hours disassociating in a target i have to paint my nails i have to tell my mother i love her. but instead i will simply sit.
i am a simple girl i seek academic validation and get absolutely destroyed when i don’t receive it